For the first time yesterday I have got to hear the biggest shocker of my life ever. It didn’t occur to me at first. I didn’t even know how to react. For a moment there I was speechless. The next thing I know I was crying right outside the elevator of EY. I know I was crying for the pain of it all. I was sobbing like I never did before minding my own business. People who come in and out of the elevator might have notice, wondering what was going on with me.
I commend my sis neng from UK for her insurmountable courage to break out the bad news to me. I know it took her a whole lot of guts to tell me, like she always does for our family. I know how tough it was for her to do that.
Cancer of the breast took my Aunt away from us. The last time I saw her was in 2005. She was ok that time, she must have gone thru all the chemo and stuff, she was happy seeing me for the first time in 4 years. She gave me a big hug and I hug her back. She told me about her being sick along with the pain she has to go through. I never promise my Aunt Puring that I could take care of her, that I could be beside her in every treatment, every chemo and all. She understands that I had to be back to KSA in 3 months time. But the one thing that I promised her was my prayers that she’d be well sooner or later. That she’d be always in my mind no matter what.
The death of my Aunt Puring may have been the biggest shocker for me, but right now right at this very moment my heart tells me that she’s in a very good hands on her final resting place. But being the person that I just am, I couldn’t help but mourn of her death. I mourn for my Aunt Puring’s death in silence. People might have seen me looking ok, but deep inside me I am not ok.
I remember how much love my aunt had for me when I was a little kid. I used to be their baby even if I was already a grown up. I was like a son to them. But I was never a brat at all. My aunt thought me a lot of good things in life which up until today I still care about. She thought me to respect the elders no matter what. She’s a disciplinarian in her own right. She scolded me like her own son on every mistake I made and sometimes as a child I just couldn’t understand why.
Unknown to me then, she teaches us to face life’s challenges head on. “Face it and never run away from your worries.”
My Aunt Puring was a true fighter. I know that she courageously sought every treatment possible to beat the cancer for many years. I remember my Aunt as truly beautiful, fashionable, headstrong, generous and vocal.
To my Auntie Puring,
I may have lost you, but I have thought of a million things I should have said. I believe it’s not too late to tell you how important you are in my life, how much you meant to me, and how sorely you are missed. I don’t know how I am living up to your expectations, but I’m trying to be the strong person you have always taught me to be. I can only honor you by being the person and the Aunt you once were to all of us you have left behind. Life does go on for us here, but we will never forget you.
You have left this world for a better place where there is no more pain, but I know that you will always be with us in spirit. We will continue with our relationship on a whole new plane and, in time, we shall all be together again.
I LOVE YOU AUNTIE PURING, ALWAYS AND FOREVER….
From your newphew,
Bobot
I commend my sis neng from UK for her insurmountable courage to break out the bad news to me. I know it took her a whole lot of guts to tell me, like she always does for our family. I know how tough it was for her to do that.
Cancer of the breast took my Aunt away from us. The last time I saw her was in 2005. She was ok that time, she must have gone thru all the chemo and stuff, she was happy seeing me for the first time in 4 years. She gave me a big hug and I hug her back. She told me about her being sick along with the pain she has to go through. I never promise my Aunt Puring that I could take care of her, that I could be beside her in every treatment, every chemo and all. She understands that I had to be back to KSA in 3 months time. But the one thing that I promised her was my prayers that she’d be well sooner or later. That she’d be always in my mind no matter what.
The death of my Aunt Puring may have been the biggest shocker for me, but right now right at this very moment my heart tells me that she’s in a very good hands on her final resting place. But being the person that I just am, I couldn’t help but mourn of her death. I mourn for my Aunt Puring’s death in silence. People might have seen me looking ok, but deep inside me I am not ok.
I remember how much love my aunt had for me when I was a little kid. I used to be their baby even if I was already a grown up. I was like a son to them. But I was never a brat at all. My aunt thought me a lot of good things in life which up until today I still care about. She thought me to respect the elders no matter what. She’s a disciplinarian in her own right. She scolded me like her own son on every mistake I made and sometimes as a child I just couldn’t understand why.
Unknown to me then, she teaches us to face life’s challenges head on. “Face it and never run away from your worries.”
My Aunt Puring was a true fighter. I know that she courageously sought every treatment possible to beat the cancer for many years. I remember my Aunt as truly beautiful, fashionable, headstrong, generous and vocal.
To my Auntie Puring,
I may have lost you, but I have thought of a million things I should have said. I believe it’s not too late to tell you how important you are in my life, how much you meant to me, and how sorely you are missed. I don’t know how I am living up to your expectations, but I’m trying to be the strong person you have always taught me to be. I can only honor you by being the person and the Aunt you once were to all of us you have left behind. Life does go on for us here, but we will never forget you.
You have left this world for a better place where there is no more pain, but I know that you will always be with us in spirit. We will continue with our relationship on a whole new plane and, in time, we shall all be together again.
I LOVE YOU AUNTIE PURING, ALWAYS AND FOREVER….
From your newphew,
Bobot
8 comments:
my condolences bot.
Condolence ning. Wish ur ok na. Rumecover ka na agad. Dont be sad, just think na at least, she rested na, yung iba naghihirap pa ng matagal, bedrest and all. At least God did not made it hard for her at sa mga maiiwan nya, though malungkot talaga, ganyan lang talaga life. You have to be strong ning. Ingat dyan.
Na sad ako sa post mo, too bad I was not there to hold your hand when ur sad specially at times like this.
hi bro ...i was shock and even up until now i still couldn't believe auntie puring has passed away...i sa her in december and she looks the same.. beautiful, elegant and most of all happy...she never looked sick and in pain...so when i read dan's email i couldn't help but ask why???ate iris and uncle fred consoled me because i kept asking what happened...i guess i just could not accept that the strongest and most influential aunt we have ever had is gone...but ate iris, the ever sweet and strong ate of ours has informed me that auntie still looks the same...she even said " ok lang neng mommy is still beautiful and she never lost any weight.."she just asks me and you to pray for her soul...bot be strong and always stay safe...just email me anytime
tnx krisJ...
tnx mike..
tnx nang neng..
I love U. God Bless!
hi bobot,
extending deep and heartfelt sympathy to you and your family.
"He Himself has said, I will not in any way fail you nor give you up
nor leave you without support."
~ Hebrews 13:5
ingatz *hugzzz*
tnx J...
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