Totally blackout with blackout...

I just got one of the biggest news today from a friend. She really surprised me with it. I didn’t expect she’d do it. I was just teasing her yesterday but then again, earlier this morning she surprised me with the news. She’s done it again, baby. I just love surprises! Yahooooooooo!!!

Can’t believe she bought me the new "BLACKOUT" CD of Britney. The most anticipated cd of Britney in four years. She knows I’m such a huge fan of brit. Huge huge fan! But I didn’t know she’d go this far either. Though which I totally appreciate the gesture. And she knows that I have been waiting for the cd to come out for like forever. As in F-O-R-E-V-E-R Goshhh it took her 4 years to release a new album. Damn!

To you my friend, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Hope you’d remain to be the biggest heart as you already are. I owe you bigtime! Goosshh, you know how excited I am to get hold of the cd itself…haha! Fed-ex, DHL, UPS..hellooooooo!!!

PS. u guys. please support britney's Blackout cd. The album the world has been waiting for is out in stores today.

How to know when its time to say goodbye..

Many people lead miserable lives because they are stuck in relationships that make them feel used, abused, unloved, and unhappy. As days pass by, they become more drowned in sadness, bitterness, and loneliness. They wallow in self-pity, become further withdrawn, and their self-esteem plummets to piteous depths. A lot of people don’t know how to tell when it is time to say goodbye. They don’t call it quits even though the relationship is going nowhere, and sticking to it does them more harm than good. They cling on to memories of the past ("Oh, we had great moments together!") and can’t face the feeling of being separated or, to put it more bluntly, rejected ("What would my friends and family say?"). Many are scared to leave a bad relationship because they’re afraid of being alone and don’t have enough confidence in their ability to survive and find another love. Ending a relationship is never easy; it always hurts especially for the one being abused, dumped or rejected. But when staying in it causes more pain than joy, it is time to take a decisive stance. Make your mind up when enough is enough. The exhilarating freedom will be well worth it once you are released from the excruciating prison of an unhealthy relationship.

Evaluate The Relationship

To analyze and fairly evaluate a relationship is difficult especially when your judgment is greatly muddled by your emotions. To be able to determine whether the relationship is beneficial or detrimental to you, try to detach yourself from your ego with all its biases and prejudices. Make a list of two columns with the headings: positive aspects of the relationship, and negative aspects of the relationship. Also include the characteristics and attributes you like about your partner (under positive aspects), and qualities and attributes you don’t like about him/her (under negative aspects). Compare which list is longer and see if you benefit more or lose from the relationship. Seeing a written list makes it easier for you to say goodbye in case the negative aspects outweigh the positive. Answer the following important questions as objectively as possible:

• Is this relationship worth the work and pain I suffer to maintain it?

• Does he/she make me feel good about myself when we are together? Do I like who I am when I’m with him/her?

• Is this relationship affecting my health and well-being? Is it decreasing my effectiveness at work and disintegrating my self-worth?

• Am I receiving as much as I give? Am I getting my fair share of love and material benefits?

• Can I deeply trust him/her or am I constantly suspicious and doubtful?

• Am I holding on to the relationship out of habit and emotion-blinded memories of the past?

To analyze and fairly evaluate a relationship is difficult especially when your judgment is greatly muddled by your emotions. To be able to determine whether the relationship is beneficial or detrimental to you, try to detach yourself from your ego with all its biases and prejudices. Make a list of two columns with the headings: positive aspects of the relationship, and negative aspects of the relationship. Also include the characteristics and attributes you like about your partner (under positive aspects), and qualities and attributes you don’t like about him/her (under negative aspects). Compare which list is longer and see if you benefit more or lose from the relationship. Seeing a written list makes it easier for you to say goodbye in case the negative aspects outweigh the positive. Answer the following important questions as objectively as possible:

• Is this relationship worth the work and pain I suffer to maintain it?

• Does he/she make me feel good about myself when we are together? Do I like who I am when I’m with him/her?

• Is this relationship affecting my health and well-being? Is it decreasing my effectiveness at work and disintegrating my self-worth?

Am I receiving as much as I give? Am I getting my fair share of love and material benefits?

• Can I deeply trust him/her or am I constantly suspicious and doubtful?

• Am I holding on to the relationship out of habit and emotion-blinded memories of the past?

• Do we still properly communicate or have we drifted too far apart that the distance is hard to bridge?

• Do I still feel love in this relationship?

• Is this relationship causing me pain, heartache, and insecurity?

• Should I stay or shall I go?

Sure Signs Of The End

After evaluating your relationship, look for these signs which indicate that sooner or later you will have to end it:

• You are being physically, verbally, and/or emotionally abused to a point that you can no longer tolerate.

• He/she says things like, "I need some space; I need more time to think," "It’s not you, it’s me," or avoids you completely.

• You are giving more and feel that you are being shortchanged; your physical and emotional needs are not being met.

• You have given him/her many chances, yet the situation and how he/she is remain the same.

• Talking to him/her is like talking to a wall. It’s useless because he/she just won’t listen.

• You’ve changed many of your core values to adjust to his/hers, hoping he/she would change but hasn’t.

• You have a growing feeling of frustration, inadequacy, and emptiness.

• You can feel your health and well-being declining.

• You have become withdrawn and have distanced yourself from close friends and members of your family.

• You feel despair and self-pity, and see no hope in the relationship.

Do we still properly communicate or have we drifted too far apart that the distance is hard to bridge?

• Do I still feel love in this relationship?

• Is this relationship causing me pain, heartache, and insecurity?

• Should I stay or shall I go?

P.S. i've been wanting to post this article before pa. i think it's going to be very helpful esp. to those rel. na mejo shaky na. Just think about it.

Colds effect...

rhinovirus cause common colds

I was really sick yesterday I decided not to report for work. I don’t like it when I have cough and colds, colds especially. I was sneezing like forever good thing I had Kleenex ready at my bed.

When I have colds I like to just stay in my bed doing whatever. I always feel like I’m not in my best look, a total mess. My hair looks horrible; my nose reddish, my eyes watery and my skin looks really dry. It’s like I don’t want anybody to see me at all (as if that’s possible…lolz).

The weather here in KSA is a bit colder now since the winter season is fast approaching. What I am feeling right now having coughed and cold I think is the effect of the change of weather.

I think colds are like seasonal occurring especially during winter.

Last Saturday I know that I am going to be sick since I have had symptoms of colds like sneezing, coughing, nasal congestion, runny nose etc. Yesterday I had to deal with all this. I was just lying in my bed most of the time. What I was feeling though did not get in the way of me watching four movies in a row. Kaloka!

I may not be feeling ok today but I had to report for work. I got some not-so-good news from a colleague telling me this and that. I might be in a big trouble. We’ll know about that in the coming days. Merese!!!

Btw, colds are like highly contagious. I think I just spread some virus in our department almost everyone had one. Peace out!

Ultimate Party Monsters...

As the month of November approaches, Halloween parties maybe on everyone’s mind right now.

Last Thursday at ranco together with my friends, we have attended yet another spectacular party, an advanced Halloween party being organized by the “insiders” of ranco. What makes it even more spectacular bec. of how the party was being well-organized; dreadful decorations, monster bashes and some party-goers had to wear costumes appropriate for the occasion.

It made the atmosphere really scary and creepy and mostly fun. It made everyone feeling devillish that night.

I thought the party was really fun esp. at how the audience showed guts wearing costumes to their liking. There was this guy-Cinderella who wears his gown funny but effectively. He’s sooo tall it’s a bit awkward. There’s this witch wearing a long black dress who scares everyone somehow with her look. There’s this guy who wears the saudi national costume with a gun on his hands which I think looks really scary esp. to my effeminate fil. friends. They know exactly what I mean on this. Chabebang hellooooo. And many others which I do not know what they were trying to project.

Should I know people would be wearing costumes like that, I should have worn the infamous Britney-catholic-school-girl look myself. Chos!

Anyway, Cinderella was named the best Halloween costume that night. The chabebang look could have been the winner should I be the judge. Lolz! Pretty scary, though!

It’s my first time to actually attend a Halloween party here. The SR30 entrance fee was all worth it. Unlucky for us, since we had to pay extra for the drinks inside. Hehe!

My weekend was all complete really. I ended it up watching slasher flicks like zodiac. etc. just in time for the occasion. I’ll continue on watching “The rocky horror picture show” tonight with my friend chay. The film is a classic!

P.S. i'll post some LQ pix tom.
paging mark-it..hellooooooo

Levi's Bday @ Ranco...

I had the opportunity to attend the b-day celebration of levi at her house in Ranco compound last Thursday night. This was the very first party I have attended since I came back from my vacation in the EP.

Pictures posted are proof that the celebration was indeed a success and a fun-filled one.

I’d say “Happy B-day friendship Levi”.

The Amazing KF Causeway...

One of the places I visited during my vacation in khobar was the King Fahd Causeway. I was just amazed at how it was built and when. Na amazed lang ako sa sobrang kahabaan ng bridge sa kalagitnaan ng karagatan (25kms long). Lolz.

And so I did my research at wikipedia and I found this brief description FYI;

The King Fahd Causeway is multiple dike-bridge combination connecting Khobar, Saudi Arabia, and the island of Bahrain.

A construction agreement signed on July 8, 1981 led to construction beginning the next year. The cornerstone was laid on November 11, 1982 by King Fahd of Saudi Arabia and Sheikh Isa bin Salman Al-Khalifa of Bahrain and went until 1986, when the combination of several bridges and dams was completed. The causeway officially opened for use on November 25, 1986.

The project, completely financed by Saudi Arabian money, cost a total of US$ 1.2 billion and was contracted out to the Ballast Nedam Group based in the Netherlands. The four-lane road (2x12.3 metres (40 ft)) is 25 kilometres (15.5 mi) long. Five bridges with an overall length of 12,430 metres (40,781 ft) were built using 350,000 cubic metres (460,000 yd³) of concrete along with 147,000 metric tons of reinforced steel.

The causeway consists of three parts, a combination of three bridges from Khobar to the artificial island on the Saudi Arabia - Bahrain border, including the longest bridge, at 5,194 metres (17,041 ft) long, a bridge from the artificial island to Umm al-Na’san Island and another bridge from Umm al-Na’san island to the main island of Bahrain.

Dra. Allen on our way to the causeway even called the KFC as one of the landmarks of SA and one legacy KF has left to the people of Saudi Arabia with historical significance. I would certainly agree to that, thank you very much!

The next time I’d visit Khobar, KF would probably be at the top of my lists of places to visit.

Extended Eid Vacation Gala Pix....

Some of the pix were taken hours after i arrived from khobar. Mark-it, Jun & a new friend Wilmer visited me at my house. We had dinner at Dajen Khurais & shop a little at Carre Four.

The next day around 7AM we headed for red sand kahit mejo ngarag pa ako. Good thing i had my shades with me, so di maxadong halata ang mga eyebags. lolz!

Enjoy the pix. enjoy daw o!

P.S.

Kumusta naman si wilmer?

Glad to know u gurl. i just heard so much about him eh.

My Eid Holiday in Khobar

Obviously I was on hiatus since the eid vacation (oct 11-19) has started here in KSA. I never had the time to update my blog. I guess I was just excited with the holidays, so excited that I didn’t even have the time to open my blogsite. It was my intention din not to write anything so I could focus more on my trip to khobar.

It’s my first after 5 years. Sobrang tagal na talga since I last visited khobar. A lot has changed, nanibago ako. I can even hardly remember the exact location of the place were I stayed before. Prominent places like alissa souk, al rashed mall and corniche, so far yun yung mga places na naaalala ko. This time it was purely vacation and no work.

There’s so much going on, the pictures posted speak for itself. I had the time of my life. It was definitely an adventure (mereseng sumakit ang ngipin ko. Lolz)! Looks like the paps are on vacation too (feeling Britney…haha!).

Khobar was like a new place again for me. It was definitely a different crowd. I got to meet a lot of new faces, visit old friends, and explore new places I haven’t been to like, the KF causeway (visited twice, corniche (visited thrice), the halfmoon beach, the infamous al rahmaniya (counterpart xa ng electron center ng riyadh sa sobrang dami ng tao, sobra!), and the ever complicated al rashed mall. Sabi nga ni chinchin while we were on our way to dammam, she felt like she was in another country daw. O diba naman?

Anyway, I’d like to say my sincerest “thank you” to charmed one for the very warm welcome sa balay nya. Sobrang sarap ng chicken wings adobo na niluto mo. Fabulous talaga xa. Kahit masakit ang ipin ko that time super lafs pa rin ako. Thank you din at nakapag charge ako ng cel at ipod ko sa haus mo, malaking tulong ang laptop mo gurl, promise. Narealized ko na sobrang importante pla ang cel charger pag nasa trip ka. I’ve learned my lesson. Mag chechecklist na ako next time. Hehe!

To my friend jester, thanks for preparing us sumptuous dinner that night na umabot na kami hanggang lunch kinabukasan sa haus mo. Feeling ko nasa pinas ako sa ambiance ng balay nyo. Sana next time ulet.

And to ML, thanks for accommodating me and jam sa cutie room mo. It was really nice to see u again. I’m happy with where you are right now professionally. Keep it up!

Obviously with all of that going on, there’s nothing much to say really.

Small fag no more...

They say being an adult is the best part in every human beings life; the perks of being a grown-up. No more parents whose going to tell you what to do. You can fool around anytime you want to. Great sex, nice shoes, great everything. It’s like the whole world is in your hands.

In reality, being an adult has its drawback. Talk about responsibility. Talk about having to work double time to pay the rent, all sorts of bills, etc. etc. And I am not complaining all the time. Life in its true essence, that is. I just had to be brave enough to face it.

The scariest part about responsibility? When you screw and mess it all up.

At certain points in my life particularly when I was younger I have live thinking about nothing but myself. I feel in many ways that life is all fun and I wanna be you young forever. I had my parents to take care of me after all. I know that sounds ridiculous, but to me it sounds right back then.

Today when I think about the time that I kind of wasted, I feel guilty. I should have done something about it earlier. I should have exerted a little effort to straighten my ways. I hate it when I think about those memories and I hate myself for creating them. I was young and scared, so don’t judge me.

There is nothing that will change the past and nothing that will help me forget it. It was what it was and it was what it was because of me. I wish it were different, but there’s nothing I can do. It’s in the past. It is time to let it go and accept it.

Right now I am seeking ways to give myself hope for some form of redemption or anything that might help me.

I am not going to continue to waste my life for being a dumbshit forever.

And so I found help from my experiences along the way. Right after I finished college. I know life for me would be different. And by the time I reached the age of 23 I know that huge responsibility will come my way, which it did.

I became more focus. I became more aware of the things going on in my surrounding. I feel like I am more in control of my life right now.

I know that I have to make decisions for myself. Decisions that is quite difficult to make. But still it’s a decision. Do I or don’t I. Am I going to take or Am I not going to take. It is a decision. Each and every time. A decision. String enough of those decisions and I believe I would be able to set a course and set a standard of living. I just have to be brave enough to face life’s reality and make an effort for everything, a little much of an effort.

Being an adult? Totally overrated. I mean seriously, adulthood is responsibility. Responsibility, it really does sucks. But what’s there to complain about.

Today, I’m not gonna say my life is perfect. It’s not. Definitely not. It’s far from being perfect. I still experience ups and downs, like any other human person out there. But right now, I feel like I am being emancipated. But definitely I could say I am no small fag no more. I take a lot responsibility for myself and for my family head on.

Above all, I had my parents to thank about. Thank you mamang and papang. Thank you for my life. Thank you for my family. My friends. They mean everything to me. Thank you for everything. Thank you. I love you all and I thank you.

Sat's a bore...

emotions w/ friends

the lafang scene

el ojos

el ojos 2

w/ chin, ice, & chard

w/ marc

I wasn’t really in a perfect mood yesterday and it was my intention not to write anything out my blog. I did visit a few blogsite and blog hop, made a few comments at olongapoboi’s blogsite. It was funny though, since my name was mention quite a few times in the comment section at one of his postings. Obviously, J & Mark are friends of mine. HAHA! Don’t worry Mark I’m not gonna have hydrocephalus that’s for sure. In fact, i’m thankful. Gonna post comments on all ur future postings, so keep on updating, ok? And J’s too.

What goes around definitely comes back around.

Anyway, I posted a few pictures here taken at Nicole’s bday last Thursday. I didn’t expect I’d be able to attend the celebration since I had to work. But hell yeah I was there. The call of Mark-it was just in time. He’ll know what I mean. Other than that, I was enjoying myself watching "Six feet Under Season 1" during the rest of my weekend. I have to thank "ice" for the dvd.