Sense of belongingness, whatsoever....

mince pepper..haha!

Have u ever felt in your entire existence feeling like you’re an “outsider”? Feeling like you do not belong? Or someone made you feel that way?

When I started working in my new job, I knew there would be things to expect. I told myself whatever they where; it would be something to look forward to. But my expectations quickly vanished. I have never felt so neglected and sooo deprived ever in my life than these past 2 days. You know the feeling of being worthless and being ignored by people you do not expect they could do it to you. Especially people that I work with and people that I considered superiors. No matter how I pep talk myself to not get affected I still could not control my emotions.

I couldn’t help but mesmerize about my good ol’ days with my previous job and remember the wonderful years I have spent with all those exceptional individuals. The working hours is fantastic. All the facilities are high-end. A round-the-clock access to the internet and kingdom-wide phone calls using IP phone, similar to the ones being used in the popular US television series “24”. You can even talk to your friends, 5 of your friends all at the same time.

You name it, stc’s got it all. Oh God, There! I can’t believe I just mention stc. Well, I can’t help it. It’s just that I kind of feel like everything in stc is being serve in a silver platter. I would have left stc and not stayed for almost 5 yrs if I didn’t like the job. It’s like a dream office for anyone.

However, there maybe bad days quite a few times as opposed to what I am experiencing right now. People at my new job are exaggeratedly observant of us esp. at me. I feel like I am being taken personally by some people whom I regard as my superiors. I guess what triggered there ego was my way of dealing with them. I am always been assertive but never tactless when I deal with them and that respect and professionalism mirror in what I do. Like an American statesman once said, “the most important aspect of the relationship between the President and the Secretary of State is that they both understand who is President."

Just that right now, a single mistake I make, they let me feel miserable and worthless. No matter how much effort I have exerted at what you do, still it doesn’t satisfy them. No matter how much you think you perfected, performed and accomplished the job, still it doesn’t satisfy them. Sometimes I feel like I don’t know what to do anymore.

My work as a secretary and admin support is not really a tough job although more and more varied functions and responsibilities has been applied lately. I’ve been into this for like forever and I know what my scope of work are. But right now, the demands and the expectations at my new job is high. Wrong false move then you kept the whole department talking.

Sometimes I question myself, am I that bad? Am I not performing my work the best I can? Am I not good enough for them? Or am I being discriminated because of the nature of my job.

Having said all that to redeem myself, I’d like to commend Mary Barrett, C. King Woodbridge, and Harry F. Klemfuss for their collective effort to create a special Secretary’s Day holiday, to recognize the hardwork of all the secretaries out there. April 4 is now celebrated in offices all over the world as “Administrative Professional’s Week” to highlight the increased responsibility of today’s secretary and other administrative workers, and to avoid embarrassment to those who out of political correctness believe that “secretary” refers only to women or to unskilled workers.

I say that secretaries are family too, who needs & deserve mutual respect and encouragement, like any other relationships out there.

P.S. I’d like to dedicate this piece to my friend J, we shared the same feelings on this.